Did sort of a “friends cleanse” I pretty much said goodbye to all my so called friends. I feel like crying. A lot of them were people that I very much care about. But they weren’t good friends to me. Didn’t even treat me like a friend. Doesn’t change the fact that I still love them. I think I’m just going to cry.
Changed my icon to Hiddles.
I don’t understand why I get like this. I let my unreasonable thoughts get to me. I’ve been happy and cheerful all day. But then I get home and it’s the complete opposite. I just want to lay in bed and cry. I have every reason to be happy, but I’m not. Sometimes I start thinking that no one actually likes me. That they’re just pretending to be my friend as some sort of sick joke. Then they all get together and make fun of everything I say. Makes sense. No one actually talks to me anymore. Someone has already straight up told me that they don’t like me. That they actually hate me. Just thinking about that makes me want to cry. I shouldn’t care about this person at all. They did horrible things to me. But I can’t help it. They’ll probably always have a special place in my heart.
Sorry. Hiddles spam coming your way. Yes, this is what I do at 1am.
Whatever. Fuck you. Just keep ignoring me and act like I don’t exist. Cause you know, it doesn’t hurt my feelings at all that you treat me like shit while I’m completely nice to you. Not to mention that I go out of my way to do things for you. That girl you’re talking to is such an ugly person. She has such a shitty personality and is selfish as fuck. She looks like a fucking horse too. You seriously “like” the ugliest people.
I may have to wear a diaper when I go watch the Avengers.
You must have been really special to me. I hold everything in. I try not to let people see the weak side of me or they will just take advantage of it. But some will actually come up to me and try to comfort me but I don’t want comfort. I just want someone to care about me. I rarely cry and when I do, it must have been really serious.
(via buddhacoffee)
I seriously don’t even know why I’m nice to you or even try to be your friend. You’re such a shady little bitch. You talk shit about everyone. Your friends are nice to you they try to get you to hang out with them but you always blow them off. You’re such a selfish little prick. You just think about yourself and who’s the next girl you’re going to fuck. It’s pathetic that you’re going after girls that are way younger than you. You’re going to be 20 in a few months, why are you going after 15 year olds? To make it worse you’re such a liar. You tell me things to make it seem like you’re some great guy. I’m just done. You’re pathetic.
Lol this kid. I don’t text him for one day and he goes apeshit. Asking if I don’t want to talk to him anymore. Maybe I’ll text him after work.
I feel like I need a break from everything. I feel like being a dick and just going away for a while. A place where no one knows me.
My dad went through my twitter account, facebook messages, and text messages. I’m fucking 19 years old. You don’t know how angry I am right now.
I think I’m giving up on boys for a while. Every guy that I’ve ended up having a crush on either
It’s not like I’m even asking for much. All I want is a guy that is going to be willing to travel with me when I have to fly out for work. Go to shows with me, stay in and watch good television. Give me massages when I get off of work. Not get angry when I don’t want to spend or talk to him all the time. I promise you’d feel like the most loved person in the world.
